It's November already and the time is fast approaching for my first born to come into this world. There are also so many things going on in between, like my online job, and a prospect client for a small business I'd like to venture into and my mom's coming over in the next two weeks.Tonight I cried over one thing... my dog "Snicker". I'm excited that my mom is coming over to see her new grand baby but I'm not that happy to find out that my dog, "Snicker" who will be left behind in Cebu is something my brother does not want to take responsibility in taking care of. I just don't understand why he likes to play with dogs sometimes but does not really have compassion on our pets. He doesn't care about feeding them, and sometime when we were younger, there was a point where I saw him being cruel to animals.
My mom is going to stay here for a short period of time say a month or two to help me with my pregnancy recovery and teach me how to take care of an infant, but at least somebody has to adopt the dog, but since my mom told me last week over the phone that she is also looking into staying in Manila, with some of our relatives it would be better that my dog would either be sold or given away as she can't afford to take the dog with her.
I felt for my dog. After all she was my first baby. When"Snicker" was a puppy she almost died, of dehydration and not eating so I took her to the vet and all my work commission and bonus were spent to have her get well. She grew up and gave birth to six puppies and only two survived. She was the most loyal dog ever. She would even lie under the bed when she sees my father resting when he was sick then. My dog senses it when I'm about to arrive home 'coz my mom would tell me that she would get all excited at the door and she will be the first one to greet me when I arrive home.
I guess I cried because if ever my mom decides not to keep the dog and give it away, I will miss the dog. I already do since I left Cebu, that sometimes I wish she were here so I can play with her when Ive nobody to talk to here. I'm just glad I have a job to keep me busy. The reason why we did not bring her with us is because pet fares for the airplane is very expensive and we can't afford it and besides, snicker will keep my mom company as I will be gone away from her by virtue of marriage.
I don't know if my husband wants to have a dog since he seems like he doesn't want it, or he just doesn't want it yet. He's quite choosy when it comes to the breed of the dog we can take care in the house and my dog is a bit annoying to him as she is the kind who runs around and romps and play. I guess we just don't have the same sentiments about this issue, it may be the reason why nobody understands when I cry over a pet dog.
I guess I just simply love my dog. There are people who do tell me that their dog is better than my dog, because their dog is more behaved than mine or theirs has a nicer breed, their dog is more expensive blah, blah, blah.... but those dogs aren't my dog! Those dogs won't care for me as much as "Snicker" does, and she is loyal to her master.
Sometimes I would imagine her lying on the floor near my son's crib and would growl at anyone who would come near my son as a sign of her protection, like she does to my dad or me when I fall asleep but I guess I wouldn't see that anymore. I guess I'll just get a new puppy then, when my son will almost be a year old, I do intend to have another dog in the house.
I just hope whoever gets my dog will take care of her as much as I did with her then when she was in my care. For now, Bye Snicker, I'll miss you!
